Impossiblexx69's Blog

A - Age: 15, 16 in three months, woooot :]

B - Bed size: Twin haha baby bed.

C - Chore you hate: Cleaning my room when it looks like a volcano exploded in there.

D - Dog's name: Barkley

E - Essential start your day item: Hair straightner

F - Favorite color: Greeen

G - Gold or Silver: Silver

H - Height: 5'3" woot :]

I - Instruments you play: Cello -angry grumble]

J - Job title: Paper shredder, oh yeah.

K - Kid(s): Nopee too young

L - Living arrangments: Mother and Father. :P

M - Mom's name: Laura

N - Nicknames: Nat, girl who smoked pot in the bathroom HAHA so funny -_-

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Nonee thank god

P - Pet Peeve: Ew having prickles like on my legs and stuff and an ugly looking room and ugly looking people making out in the hallway

Q - Quote from a movie: "I'll be seeing you" The Notebook :]]]

R- Right or left handed: Rightt

S - Siblings: ICK! Not coming home this summer yesssss :]]]]]

T - Time you wake up: 6:00 A.M.

U- Underwear: I like my green polka dotted ones :]]

V - Vegetable you dislike: Ew tomatoes, gag.

W - Ways you run late: Adie doesn't pick me up :]

X - X-rays you've had: Of my uh like lungs I think then a cat scan.

Y - Yummy food you make: Haha i don't know how to cook.

Z - Zoo favorite: The froggies :] or seals.

i don't really care if anyone reads these haha. just wanna type somethinggggg

 

and i will be typing about ITALY
18 DAYS

OMG

were going to venice and rome and florence and assisi and maybe pompeii and i'm going to be in italy and not in ohio and yay.

 

AND NEW GREEN DAY CD IN MAYYYYYYY AHHHHHHHHHHH LKSDJFKLSAJFKLDSJFKLSDAJFKLASJFEIWOKLDALSJDFKL

AND 19 MONTH TOUR STARTING IN JULY
EVEN MORE AHHHHHH
LSDJFKALSDJFKLSFKJSIFIVOWAEIJRIOWAMCEIWMCEIAOFNIOAVNIOEFOIA

 

 

i am determined to go, be in the front, and billie joe armstrong is going to touch my hand

and i will never wash it again.

well probably not

BUT STILL.

anddd i only have like 3 more months of orchestra FINALLY i hate stupid miss jones grrr hoebag.

and only three more ogts.

yay.

okay i'm done now haha.

-natalia hutchinson. (thanks mattalino :])

It's been almost a year since I posted the first facts about me, so I wanted to see how much I've changed;;

1.Well, my name is still Natalie, hah.
2. I am FIFTEEN as of today. (=
3. I am taken by Alex (=
4. I miss my past more then anything.
5. I got suspended from school in February for the first time for smoking pot in the bathroom =x
6. I am, obliviously, no longer against smoking, and I do smoke, bad habit. I prefer Marlboro menthols (= But not smooth menthols because I like getting nicotine high and those are gay and don't make me lightheaded haha.
7. I miss drinking )= After what happened in May I promised myself never to get drunk again, but I want to soooooooooooooooooooooo badly.
8. I really like speed, it's exciting (= and I wanna try x or shrooms before I die.
9. I will never pop Mucinex again, throwing up at school is not my favorite )=
10. My favorite movies are; Titanic, What Happens In Vegas, The Notebook, and The Nightmare Before Christmas.
11. Current band obsession;; Secondhand Serenade <333
12. I lost my best friend in the whole entire world in June )'=
13. I am a blondie again, and loving it (=
14. When I dress up it's the only time I feel pretty
15. I can't wait to go to college, just so I can leave Ohio :P
16. I love walking around at night in autumn (=
17. I am scared of Mark Ivey's fingers, =x hahahahahahhah
18. I kind of feel like a whore sometimes and I hate it.
19. My biggest dream in the WORLD is to be on Broadway <33333333333333
20. I have changed more then I ever have in the past year.
21. I have only one regret in my life, and I still feel like shit about what I did to this day, and I will never stop feeling like complete and utter shit to what I did to someone =// No matter what, it still haunts me to this day.

Ugh, I just need somewhere to vent =/

Why must I be totally fine during the day with friends, then at night like,
I just start thinking about well everything.

Like as soon as I stop texting my boyfriend, I forget about everything and think about my past and how I honestly miss it. =/ I'm so happy now, but like, I just start thinking about people, two inpaticular, and just start bawling =[

And today Lauren brought one of the people over Nicks house, and legally I can't even hang out with her, and she hates me now anyway =[[

And the other person, well, I don't even know why I still cry about that, I just can't help it. Like I think about everything I used to feel and I just well break down I guess, and I'm pretty sure it's not a good thing if I have the same feelings I used to for him.

Ugh I'm just so sick of crying and shit, I really am =/// ='[

I'm going to bed though and I'm going to try to have an enjoyable birthday.

i no im like
a few weeks late
but whatev. =D
best of luck to him and jamia

buttt...is he still going on tour???
=[

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR FRAAAAANK
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

mr. 26 year old!!
we love  you frank iero =]


^^hee hee i love that pic xD

I stayed the night before the police went to get my mom. I was having trouble sleeping. Gerard came and woke me up in the middle of the night.

"Syd. Are you okay?" He said holding me up.

"Yea I’m fine...just having trouble sleeping." I said quietly.

"Here, lay back down. I’ll stay until you fall asleep." Gerard whispered, laying me back down onto the couch. It was silent for a bit, then I heard Gerard’s soft voice singing quietly.

Late dawns and early sunsets
Just like my favorite scenes.
Then holding hands and life was perfect
Just like up on the screen

And the whole time while always giving
Counting your face among the living

Up and down escalators
Pennies and colder fountains
Elevators and half price sales.
Trapped in by all these mountains

Running away and hiding with you
I never thought they’d get me here
Not knowing you’d change from just one bite
I fought them all off just to hold you close and tight

But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts
To put this to your head
But would anything matter
If you’re already dead?
And should I be shocked now
By the last thing you said
Before I pull this trigger
Your eyes vacant and stained

But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head
And now should I be shocked
By the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger
You’re eyes vacant and stained
And in saying you loved me
Made things harder at best
And these words changing nothing
As your body remains
And there’s no room in this hell
There’s no room in the next
And our memories defeat us
And I’ll end this direst

But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts
To put this to your head
But does anything matter
If you’re already dead
And should I be shocked now
By the last thing you said
Before I pull this trigger
Your eyes vacant and stained
And in saying you love me
Made things harder at best
And these words changing nothing
As your body remains
And there’s no room in this hell
There’s no room in the next
But does anyone notice...
There’s a corpse in this bed?

His voice automatically calmed me down. And I drifted off into a deep sleep.

I woke up to the sound of Mikey talking to Frank about something.

"Give me the coffee pot Frank, and no one will get hurt." Mikey said, trying to get Frank to hand him his coffee.

"NEVER!!!!!!" Frank said, torturing Mikey, and ran to hide behind Gerard.

"Hell no. I tried keeping Mikey from coffee one time, and I thought he was gunna kill me!" Gerard exclaimed, pushing Frank in front of him. I walked in the kitchen, taking the coffee pot from Franks hands.

"Thank you" I said, smiling at them.

"That just isn’t cool man!" Mikey cried, sitting down at the kitchen table. I poured a cup for him.

"There ya go, Mikes. Drink up." I smiled giving him the mug.

"YAY!!!" Mikey shrieked, downing the whole cup in about two sips.

We all laughed; I could defiantly get used to living here. I love these guys.

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sorry it took so long to post this!!!!!!!!!! i really am!!!
yesterday was amazing <3

-nat

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He dragged me the whole way to his house, and we entered again, with Allie, Gerard, and Frank still there. They were sitting in the living room with Mr. and Mrs. Way.

"Sydney are you o-what happened to your cheek?" Frank asked, his gorgeous hazel eyes piercing my blue green ones.

"My mom hit me..." I whispered, barely audible.

"What?" Frank asked, not understanding what I said the first time.

"M-my mother. She hi-hit’s me." I said, and started crying. Frank wrapped his arms around me and I cried into his shoulder. He was really nice for just properly meeting me yesterday. I understood why I liked him. I felt safe in his arms.

-Time Elapse-

About three hours later, the police were interrogating me about my mother.

"How long has she done this for, Ms. Ravenna?" Mr. Thompson asked me.

"About two years." I said, focused on my lap.

"Why didn’t you tell anyone?" The officer said, writing down everything.

"I-I thought she would find out, and hurt me more."I explained, twiddling my thumbs.

"Well, it says that you are to go to custody with a Julie Ravenna?" he said, questioning me about my dead aunt.

"That’s my Aunt Julie. She died in a car crash about three years back." She got hit dead on my a drunk driver driving the wrong way on the road. My Aunt Julie was the only one that cared for me, and I missed her even to this day.

"Okay, well that seems to be the only person in your family who signed to take you," I blushed feeling slightly embarrassed that really no one in my family cared, "do you know of anyone else who would like to take you in?"

"Erm, well." I hesistated.

"We would be delighted." Mrs. Way spoke up. I looked back and gave her a small smile.

"Okay, Mr. and Mrs. Way, come in the other room and we’ll make the arrangements." This all seemed to good to be true: my mom was getting arrested, I was gunna get to live with the Way’s, and I had friends. Actual friends. Everything seemed fine for once. And I knew it would be this way for a while.

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sorry so short, and sorry it took so long to update.
well school starts on tuesday [ew]
and i dont wanna go back =[

but i like someone who likes meee =]
and even if he reads this [which i doubt], he is sweet, and kind and funny and we have a lot in common, and i like him a lot. so anywho. there ya go. im tired, so hopefully ill update tomorrow. night night =]

-nat

1: My name is Natalie, but if anything, call me Nat.
2:My friends are everything to me.
3: I'm sadly single. I think i will be for a while =/
4: I love my eyes. They are my favorite part of my body.
5: Eyeliner is an essential.
6: I love hott guys kissing [like Frank and Gerard= Frerard xD]
7: I am strongly against smoking.
8: My favorite subject in school is history.
9: Currently, I am obbsessed with My Chemical Romance.
10: I have loved Queen since i was 3.
11: If i don't have coffee for one day, i have a headache by the end of the day.
12: I thought not wearing my glasses would improve my vision, but it gave me astigmitism in my left eye.
13: I am obbsessed with Frank Iero.
14: I love changing my hair color more then anything.
15: My iPod my number one prized possession. His name is Robert xD.
16: My Fender Strat is my number two prized possession. Her name is Cinder.
17: MCR saved my life.
18: I love Buggles. They are awesome chips!
19: Roses are my favorite flower. The smell, the look, everything.
20: My friend Alex does the best impression of the "Berries and Cream" commercial.
21: I'm only 5'2". I'm a shrimp.
22: Favorite movie?? Zoolander is def. one of them. And Edward Scissorhands.
23: I am currently eating Doritos.
24: Best Buy products absolutley HATE me. Everything i've gotten from there has broken.
25: I've been suicidal before.
26: I love caffiene.
27: I love it when guys hug me =]
28: I also love it when guys let me wear their hoodies =]
29:I cant think of anymore haha

tada.

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Mikey woke me up at the end of the movie, and I rubbed my eyes.

"Syd, since when do you wear cover up or whatever it’s called? Some came off on my shoulder..."Mikey slowly drifted off, looking at my cheek, "you lied to me??"

"I...uhm...well."I stuttered.

"Syd, I thought you could trust me...why didn’t you tell me on the phone??" Mikey said, sounding very upset.

"I just couldn’t!" I said on the verge of tears.

"That’s not a good enough excuse! Because Sydney, I don’t want anything happening to you! You mean a lot to me! I love you...in those pants!" Mikey yelled, then saving himself before he said something he thought he would regret.

"Mikey, I know you like me. I heard you and Gerard today." I said to him. His face just dropped.

"You did?" he asked worryingly.

"Yes." I replied.

"Oh.." he said, and his cheeks turned red.

"Mikey, don’t be embarrassed. I just don’t like you like that. I see you more as my older brother then a boyfriend. I’m really sorry Mikey. I really am." I said almost in a whisper.

"That’s why I didn’t want you to like Frank. I didn’t want you getting hurt. I wanted you with someone who wouldn’t hurt you, like..well...me." he said, and blushed again.

"Mikey, if you want me to be happy, you’ll let me at least try with Frank. I don’t eve know if he likes me. I really did just meet him. Give it some time. I promise, if things don’t work out, I know you’re always there, Mikey. I will give you a chance if things don’t work out. I promise." I said, taking his hand making him feel more secure. He smiled at me, and mustered up the courage to kiss my cheek quickly.

"Did she do anything else to you, or did you do anything else do yourself?" Mikey said looking me in the eyes.

"Yes..." I said hesitating to tell him the truth.

"Lemme see." Before I took off his hoodie again, I asked him one thing.

"Please do not be mad at me Mikey. That is all I ask you." and with that, I took off the hoodie. He ran his fingers lightly over my frail stomach and sides. Sadly, he saw my wrists again, and took them in his hands.

"I’m not mad at you, Syd. I just am really upset. It hurts me when I see you hurt yourself." he whispered, and I felt warm tears spill down my cheeks. He wiped them away with his thumb, and took my hand again.

"Put your hoddie back on. We’re going to my house; we are telling my mom." Mikey said and tried pulling me out the door. I yanked my hand out of his.

"No! I’m not telling! I don’t who I go to if my mom gets sent to jail. My luck it would be across the country. I don’t wanna leave you guys!" I said, and crossed my arms.

"Please! We can request you live with us! Just please, I can’t stand to see you hurt anymore!" Mikey pleaded, taking my face in his hands.

"Mikey, I don’t want to leave you guys..." I whispered, looking him straight in his eyes.

"Please..."Mikey begged one more time.

"Fine." I said, hopefully not regretting this.

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no double post. stressed about high school starting. im not even going to a new school yet!!! this is how my school district works:

kindergarten-6th grade= elementary school.
7-9=jr. high
10-12=high school.

so im goin into friggin 9th, and we are the last freshman class at the jr. highs. they are moving the 6th graders up to the jr. high and the 9th graders up to the high school which SUCKS because my high school is already the most populated in OHIO and its SMALLL!! there are already 40-50 people in one class, people doubling/tripling up on lockers. its gunna suck. and im already all alone in most of my classes. im in freakin algebra one fundementals with a bunch of people who HATE me like my english class last year!! its gunna suck!! GRR!!!

allright well im done with my rant =/ goodnight. or goodday. or whatever.

-nat